#“i wss terrified” 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

[ceedeelamb]

Not Stefon tattooing Trevon 😭😭😭

[stonething]

guess who's thinking about the Bad Things again? and just in time for bed too

[princess-pill-enjoyer]

Well uh I have an unexpected update

I told them bout damn near everything. I tried to kms a few different times but the very last try I thought would be guaranteed to work. Soo when I woke up barely feeling any different I was BITTERRR

Shoot abd yeah I won't lie, I took it out on them partially. But. I admitted to everything

And they didn't yell at me for it. Uh. Well I wss doing most of the yelling honestly.. I was terrified. I was being so defensive just waiting on them to trash on me. Tho uh I guess me yelling was a little much. I don't ever yell so it rattled my stepmom a bit annd I think that ended up being the straw that broke the camels back. She randomly cries all the time now

Not to say I'm proud of that but I am glad that it went that far. They're really taking fixing everything seriously. Me, my sisters, and my stepmom and dad all talked together last night. We all tried to just brush past it but she started boohooing and pushed us to talk about the more serious issues

That shit was scary as hell. I hate it. But from now on we're all supposed to work on talking and working through certain issues so that we're all not avoiding each other all day everyday

I think I'm truly done with dph tho. I hate swallowing pills atp. Just picturing that feeling of them sliding down my throat.. the way my stomach burns. Ugh. I can't atm. And now that they know, I don't think I'd be allowed to keep any pills on deck tbh 😭

Part of me regrets it all. Part of me still hates everything and would rather die than figure our everything that's wrong with me. But meh. It is what it is

Me and R are back to normal too tbh. I love her still but atp she feels like family to me. I don't think I'd want a relationship with her anymore. Well kinda but it's just not the same. I'm glad I can push past that shit for now

Annd uh. Ig that's it. I'll leave everything up just incase there's someone out there struggling. Ik I did a lotta whining but I hope some of the bs I spew'll be useful

Hmu if you want anything. I'll still check in on this acc from time to time. But for now... this is it